A Little IV Therapy Here, A Little IV Therapy There

As I fight off sleep (as usual) I am trying to put together a quick little post to let you all know that mom and I were able to get away for a few days during christmas. Some of you might remember that my Nana, who lived in Manitoba, passed away this summer. So mom and I decided that we were going to spend this christmas with our family in Manitoba.

Trying to get away for us with my health sometimes is a nightmare, even if it is being planned. If we waited for my health to improve, we would be waiting forever. No time is a perfect time, and no matter how prepared we are, something always happens. We have learned to just breathe and try to relax. In the end no one is going to die if we just take our time, but if we rush, someone could.

This trip has of course come with its own surprises already. I already have been to visit the inside of an ER for the last two days. Now I will have the privilege to visit the Day Treatment area for IV therapy and hydration for the next five days. I must say that the nurses here in Manitoba are super nice but I miss my nurses back home. (Hi GDC Nurses!)

Due to the nausea and vomiting, I am dehydrated, which can cause your veins to hide. I also have been receiving potassium infusions for a while now which is brutal on your veins and can also make them hard. So as you can imagine I am a very hard IV start. After many failed IV attempts and multiple blown IV’s I eventually did get my treatment, but the nurses here are ready to send me back home to my other nurses!

One thing I know for sure is that they have nicer chairs!

Pamela

I Am Letting Time Pass Me By

I guess I just have to admit it. I can no longer ignore what is staring me in the face day after day… I am sleeping what is left of my life away. Sleeping. Precious time that I could be doing something valuable or accomplishing something that has some sort of value to someone. But no, I don’t. Instead I have nothing to show for myself, nothing to my name. Instead I sleep my time away.

My days seem to be getting shorter and shorter because of it. I am awake far less now a days, and when I am awake, I am so exhausted nothing gets done. It seems that the days fly by, and if I were to sit down and figure it out, I bet I am awake less than ten hours a day. I easily can sleep away 12-14 hours a day if I were to add up naps, and include the times I fall asleep at the hospital and doctors office.

I have started to notice how quickly the day is over for me now.

WARNING: DEPRESSIVE POST FOLLOWS

Waking Up From My “Zombie Meds” Induced Fog

I am finally home from the hospital after almost a month of tests and procedures. A lot of things have changed and my medications have changed a ton as well. One thing we found out for sure Neurologists confirmed I have small fibre peripheral neuropathy. So at least we know my crazy nerve pain is real. The one problem I am still dealing with is the side effects of the “zombie meds”, due to being in the hospital.

I was put on medications that I like to refer to as my “zombie meds” since they knock me out cold! They are anti seizure medications and I am still feeling the effects from them even now.  I seriously do not remember almost a complete two weeks of my life, just blank… missing. I am glad to only be on one of them now.

Even currently as I am trying to type out these words on the keyboard, I am struggling to make my fingers work properly. My manual dexterity is not responding well at all. My coordination is shot and I constantly am having to erase what I have written and then have to re-write it because I am hitting the wrong keys. I fall asleep in mid sentence while I am typing and then I can not remember what I was writing about. I try to keep my mind on track and have an actual thought process but it is impossible. I have been trying to write this post now for almost an hour… and look I have nothing written.